So I did it again. Another day of fast food right after my work shift. Time after time I've told myself never to eat so late, never to eat unhealthy food, never to go against my desire for McDonald's fries. Another disappointment. After truly thinking about my stagnant position in life right now, it looks like it's time for a little self-transformation...physically, psychologically, and emotionally.
The pettiest, incipient habits that slowly solidify into everyday life is another reason to scream inside and hate yourself. What's worse, I know I have the potential for greatness...but willingly going against what I know is right is the problem. So what is it that needs to be done then? How are these habits deteriorating my self-worth, confidence, behavior, and ability to be the best I could be? Just as they creep slowly into my life, I know it will take that much slower to kill those bad habits. It's not just the eating. Deep within me is a person who needs to break out, to radiant what is truly within. I am afraid I am not the only person who feels this way. I guess we're all scared to fail, but not trying is much worse.
Today, I've decided (at approximately 11:17pm) to transform this person into what she is worth. I want to focus on the basics first. I've decided that I want, more than anything, is to have more confidence. What is confidence without caring about what others think about me? And that's just it. I won't. Second, I need to seriously start eating healthier, even if that means I have to cook everyday from this point forward. No more McDonald's for you, Savannah. Start busting up that Magic Bullet and pop in that daily vitamin, then load that blender with tons of veggies and fruits. Load em' up! Third, I will go to the gym at least 4 times a week, every other day. You want those abs and tone arms? Savannah, fetch them with some sweat and hard work. No pain no game. Fourth, I will not be afraid to change up my style a bit. I'll dawn on that vibrant rogue lipstick and silly hat or learn to actually french braid hair. Maybe I'll even get highlights, a piercing...who knows? I just need change. And lastly, I will keep my eyes on my dream. Everyone has that one dream we just can't let go of. Maybe, instead of daydreaming, we should actually start working towards touching that dream. Duh? The hardest part of any journey is that one step. Take that risk and refine what you've thought you couldn't. Savannah, you know what dream you want, even if you don't know right now. You will. Which dream matters to you more? Why? Can it be possible to do both? Get the best of both worlds then...balance.
So there it is... my transformation list. I hope my ranting has served some purpose by getting you to think about what you really want out of life. I thought today about how we only actually have about 80-100 years on this earth if we're lucky. That's it. What can we do to enjoy life while serving a purpose while leaving a legacy? That's up to you to decide. What's beautiful is that we all have a unique calling, varying goals.
Write them all down in a transformation journal and tally the good and bad days. We all slip but just get back up and note your progress. Day #1 begins tomorrow for me. I'm on my own path to transformation...
Will you leave your comfortable cocoon and finally spread those amazing wings of yours? Join me!
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